It's 1:36 am and I had to start to pen this journey. Holy Spirit literally told me something that really opened my eyes to another layer of my purpose here on earth. So here we are, I pray that my transparency and open heart will inspire you, encourage you, and affirm you. Inspire you to dream and take action, encourage you to keep moving forward, and affirm you in knowing that if you have a pulse you have a purpose. I hope this space plants seeds that will blossom into righteous oaks. Being a mother of a son is a weighty task. Boys grow into men, and men are to lead, protect, provide, and so much more. In December 2015 my son and I embarked on a journey to live in a new state. I had no definite details but I did have a word from God and enough faith to believe Him. We ended up sleeping on someone's floor for three months- I had only met her 2 months prior. Being a parent is tough, being a single parent is creative, but being a single mother of a son that my friends raises the stakes and to add to it I am a souled out blood washed believer. This faith walk is not a cake walk for anyone, but the dynamics change a bit when there are little eyes watching you. My son has wiped my tears, comforted unspoken fears, and literally holds my hand every step of the way. (Here come the tears!) You see I got pregnant at 18 and gave birth to my son at 19 and at the time I thought I was a blessing to this child- but let me tell you how this child has been a major blessing to me. Although, single parents are typically the ones left out and given the sympathy pat in reality we are nothing less than warriors. Some make excuses and others make it happen. We don't have much of a choice. Everyday is a brand new day with brand new mercies and I am forever grateful, but everyday brings a new set of questions and decisions. Some days I feel like Abraham- a faith walker, other days I feel like Gideon who felt inadequate. But regardless of my feelings I have to get up and lead, guide, and teach my son I cant afford to take days for granted. Intentionality makes a difference, my son has his own relationship with Abba and understands that God uses the willing not the "old". I guess my point is exactly what I was led to post on social media yesterday, no matter the situation, no matter the circumstance it's ALL good (Romans 8:28). Where you are today will be a memory tomorrow. I hope you walk alongside of me on this journey, let's grow TOGETHER!
You are AMAZING!