I pray that you are having an amazing day, and if it's not feeling so amazing do me a favor and close your eyes and place your first two fingers on the inside of your wrist you feel that!?! If you have a pulse you have a purpose! I know it seems like if it's not one thing its another but be encouraged that everything you face and overcome prepares you for the next level. Today I want to encourage you that this is not the end but the time for a beautiful beginning. I'm writing this today to hold your hand and let you know Sis, it's time to forgive and shift your perspective. I used to be a champion grudge holder- seriously I could have a trophy. I was determined to always let it be known that if/when someone hurt me or crossed me that they know, that I know what they did was foul. (LOL) I really thought that holding grudges was a way to protect me from experiencing hurt again. Holding a grudge is like putting a band aid on an open wound. A band aid won't heal an open wound just like holding a grudge against your child's(ren) father won't really fix the issues you feel and face. As I shared before I got pregnant at 18 and my son's dad and I sat at a Friday's and decided we were going to have this baby (I'll share a bit more in another post). Soon things shifted and I felt so alone during my pregnancy, it was obvious that one of us was ready for family life while the other was ready to party and be on the social scene. I felt lied to, I felt let down, and yet again I found myself abandoned. I struggled with abandonment issues so these feelings weren't new. I felt like yet again I was all alone. I laid hands on my belly and prayed for my baby more than I had ever prayed in my life. I knew that things were going to change but I didn't know the details. Instead of getting a place together my son's dad moved in with his cousin which meant I had to stay at my parents home. My honkey dory life was not panning out how I envisioned. After about 2 years of on again off again moving together and apart I found myself back in my parents home and I had gotten a call that an apartment became available and it was mine! I was overjoyed that my son would have his own room in this brand new resort style complex. Most importantly it was all ours. I don't know what your background story is to becoming a single momma but I do know that the power to heal and grow through what you're facing is on the inside of you. I know that bitterness, hurt, and disappointment can be uprooted from your heart towards your child's dad. I know that dwelling on the past will never help you move forward. I also know that waiting for closure or an apology is a waste of the gift that does not keep giving; time. Seek God to heal any open wounds, seek God for closure to the situation. If you are harboring any ill feelings toward your child's dad pray about it, cover that man in prayer (you may be the ONLY person praying for him). Talk to God about it, write a letter pouring everything out to release your thoughts, and feelings and when you throw that letter away let the bitterness, hurt, and disappointment go right with it. Forgive yourself. Forgive yourself. FORGIVE YOURSELF. We're humans, we make choices and sometimes they aren't the best but we learn to work with what we have and appreciate it just the same. I am rejoicing with you in total freedom from the past. Cheers to new beginnings!
Father God I thank you for my sister that is reading this post right now I pray that you will continue to give her peace, clarity, wisdom, and strategy for how you need her to move forward in the freedom that you've given her. Lord I pray that you put an impenetrable hedge of protection around her and her child (ren). Your word tells us that you are a mother to the motherless and a father to the fatherless so Lord be exactly who they need you to be. Show them your glory, protect and provide for them like only you can. I declare and decree that every soul tie is destroyed in the name of Yeshua (Jesus). I speak shalom into every home. Lord have your way every minute of every day in Yeshuas name, Amen!
You are AMAZING!